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bluedevil180
02 October 2011 @ 08:28 am
INFJ
Michelle Pfeiffer
Edward Norton
Josh Radnor

ENFJ
Helena Bonham Carter
Kate Winslet
Reese Witherspoon
Morgan Freeman

ISFJ
Naomi Watts
Hallie Berry
Kirsten Dunst
Kim Kardashian
Vin Diesel
Bruce Willis

ESFJ
Jessica Alba
Laura Harring
Paris Hilton
Tyra Banks
Sarah Jessica Parker
Monica Belucci
Alyson Hannigan
Woody Harrelson
Jason Segel

INTJ
Jodie Foster
Julia Stiles
Elyse Sewell

ENTJ
Jim Carrey
Tea Leoni
Cobie Smulders

INFP
Johnny Depp
Kurt Cobain
Heath Ledger
Morrissey
Bjork
Fiona Apple


ENFP
Robin Williams
Sandra Bullock
Jenna Elfman
Pink
Sarah Michelle Gellar

ESTP
Jack Nicholson
Mila Kunis
Angelina Jolie
Amy Winehouse
Meryl Streep

ISTP
Christian Bale
Tom Cruise
Harrison Ford
Scarlet Johansson
Julia Roberts

ENTP
Kevin Barnes
Robert Downey Jr.
Tom Hanks
Neil Patrick Harris
Gillian Anderson
Rose McGowan

INTP
Sigourney Weaver

ESFP
Leonardo DiCaprio
Justin Bieber
Robbie Williams
Megan Fox
Katy Perry
Cameron Diaz

ISFP
Brad Pitt
Michael Jackson
Eminem
Trent Reznor
David Bowie
John Travolta
Prince
Nicole Kidman
Christina Aguilera
Britney Spears
Beyonce
Pamela Anderson
Drew Barrymore
Marilyn Monroe
Elizabeth Taylor

ESTJ
Ivanka Trump

ISTJ
Robert DeNiro
Sean Connery
Anthony Hopkins
Natalie Portman

Thoughts?
 
 
bluedevil180
14 July 2011 @ 09:51 pm
As I've become more comfortable in my own skin..I am feeling more certain that my actual Myers-Briggs type is INFJ.

Here is my rationale for each preference.

Introvert: A tough one to decide because I can often be energetic/talkative like an Extrovert. However, I do that easier in the context of one-to-one conversations than in groups. I feel more at home with the former..probably because it is less overstimulating and one-to-one conversations are often more interesting than group conversations. I can "act like an extrovert" but on the whole, I think I am an Introvert by nature..but as a disclaimer..not a particularly strong one. I don't think I am by any means an uber-introvert.

iNtuitive: This is the preference which is the most clear to me. I am more interested in abstract topics than in concrete ones. My mind goes very quickly and I enjoy intellectual challenges. I like to speculate and create "what-if" scenarios and to make predictions about the future..even if they have no immediate, practical relevance. I've met very intelligent Sensors who are not like this and I've met not-so-intelligent iNtuitors who have these traits. So I think these traits are more than "just having a high IQ", I think it shows a preference for iNtuition over Sensing. I have a creative side to me and love writing and reading fiction.

Feeler: I like to think of myself as a logical guy- someone who makes decisions by evaluating the pros and cons of a situation. However, I think on the whole, I consider the subjective element too much when making these decisions. I think I am also too gentle with others to be a Thinker. My instinct is to be kind to everyone and to give people the "benefit of the doubt" even when 'reason' suggests otherwise. I am more sympathetic than tough. I tend to take criticism well..but even that I think is for Feeler reasons.. "I know the criticism is for my own good and I trust the person isn't giving the criticism to sabotage me." I think the "being good at finding logical solutions" trait just is more so from how my mind works and my kind of intellect rather than an actual personality trait..a Feeler can have strong logical intelligence and a Thinker can have weak logical intelligence. Finally, I am a diehard romantic..my ideal relationship is one in which I truly bond with another person like soulmates. It is what I seek.

Judger: This one probably hit me the most as a surprise. However, I work best when there is structure...but it is typically my own structure and I actively resist structure that others place on me. I think my life got better when I started to plan things ahead. It felt more natural and I started feeling less anxious about things. I think that's probably the case for most Judgers. I also have some obsessive tendencies and have a hard time taking a "live and let live" policy on life. I think I consciously changed this trait after getting out of a relationship in high school..I was the "J" and she was the "P" and I think that caused enough conflicts and heartbreak that I felt the need to "reinvent myself".

As a result..INFJ. I think it works well with my "natural characteristics" when taking out all of the behaviors I took on to "be likable".

What do you guys think?

I think I took on more traits of my shadow type (ESTP) because I thought that was what I needed to fit in. However, none of that feels naturally to me.
I am not really a "party-boy alcoholic" type...I took on that image because I thought that was what I needed for people to like me.
However, as I've grown up..I've realized that I can just be myself and people do like me for who I am.
I also feel strangely more charismatic even though I might come across as "less exciting". I find that people listen to me and respect me more than they used to.
 
 
bluedevil180
05 July 2011 @ 08:23 am
I'm tired of not living up to my potential.
It's time to start doing so.
I wasted enough time.
I'm ready to prepare for the future.
 
 
bluedevil180
06 May 2011 @ 01:12 am
So as I think about what I am going to do after the program below..
http://www.business.rutgers.edu/pamba

I have a few options.

The first is to work for a public accounting firm- that is what most people do after this program or something else business-related. Kind of self-explanatory.. the program is going to help me pass the CPA exam and all that jazz.

The second is to pursue a PHD in Accounting.

It is an option I have seriously been considering.
I would do so after obtaining my MBA most likely.
I have discussed the option with some people..first with the idea that I would work for a few years and then get a PHD, but the consensus seems to be that if I know I want to pursue a PHD that I should probably just do it after getting a Masters.

It will be interesting trying to figure out where I can apply and where I can get in.

My MBA program doesn't have any research opportunities for MBA students..the only students who actually work in research at Rutgers are PHD students. However, I think the best thing I can do is really delve into the material, start reading accounting research journals and get involved in the subject matter. Even if I don't have tangible research, if I am passionate, it will show in my LOR's and when I interview at places. I am not sure where to apply just yet. Some programs are better in certain areas of accounting than others.

e.g: Cornell has one of the best PHD programs in the world but if my interests lie in tax accounting, I wouldn't even want to apply there since the school doesn't do that sort of research.

There are two acronyms to mull over though. GPA and GMAT.
GPA: So, I am going to be graduating from Duke with a ~2.9. This is my red flag and thankfully my only red flag as of now. I think grad school is going to go well though. I can show that I am capable of putting the work in there. My accounting GPA is a 4.0 right now. Let's see if I can keep it up at Rutgers. I have gotten some cynical responses that grad school GPA won't help that much but overall getting good grades in grad school will help me a lot more than getting bad grades in grad school. The impression I am getting is that a 2.9 UG GPA is a problem but not a dealbreaker, assuming other factors are strong.

GMAT: Right now, I have a 710 GMAT. This is a strong score and is above average for a lot of PHD programs. However, I might want to consider retaking the GMAT to get a higher score. While a 710 is good, something 750+ will probably cause fewer universities to not even bother inviting me for an interview. I found a website: 800score.com which has a cheap GMAT online prep program. I am considering taking it and then retaking the GMAT ~August. If it wasn't for the GPA, I wouldn't even consider it. No program is going to be spitting at my GMAT- it is other things they will be spitting at.

If anyone has any thoughts/advice, let me know!

Also the third option is law school but meh...not really feeling it right now.
 
 
bluedevil180
23 April 2011 @ 07:10 pm
I sent a lot of you a "tritype test". I feel confident that 6w7 is my core type (also my head fix) and that 3w2 is my image fix. However, I am stuck between whether 9w8 or 9w1 is my gut fix. I can relate to Nine very well but not as much to either Eight or One.
Could you guys tell me which of these two you think sounds more like me?
An explanation of your reasoning would be helpful too!
Thanks in advance!!

9w8 is about calmness(nine) from a position of strength(eight). They choose to be calm as opposed to feeling they have to maintain being calm to avoid conflict or estrangement like a 9w1. They don't invite conflict but don't shy away from it either as they nip conflict in the bud as quickly as possible. They are the most "chill" of the instinctive triaders. They have the best balance in their personal boundaries as they are halfway in between being a doormat and dominating others. This is why they are generally the most likeable of all subtypes.

9w8 is called the "comfort-seeker" and wants to make life easier for themselves. They are firmly grounded in their bodies with an emphasis on being physically comfortable. Hardly anything bothers them. They aren't nearly as hard on themselves as 9w1s. They are easygoing but can be direct with others if forced out of their comfort zone as they are much more assertive than their 9w1 siblings. While they have a bias towards letting things work out on their own they have no problem stepping in and settling things.

9w8s have an ego in being grounded in reality. They pride themselves in being simple regular people. They take pleasure in noticing when there isn't any point to discussing something, often to the extent of exhibiting a "who cares" apathy. Asserting their self-importance certainly falls in that category. While they are realistic about themselves they have a tendency to be underestimated by others. Like eights they play down and trivialize what's not worth dwelling on as "no big deal". Not getting what they want is also declared "no big deal" and therefore not that important. They tend to be attracted to the outdoors and other physical activities. They mainly fear permanently losing loved ones.

9w8s are more genial and practical. They are significantly less withdrawn than 9w1s. Although they are less intuitive than 9w1s, they have a natural sense of rhythm for the ebb and flow of things around them. They have an ability to make anyone like them even when they are being irreverent and mischevious. They have an "it's all good" attitude as nothing appears to bother them. In response to a prank they might go "nice one" whereas a 9w1 would initially seem dazed and taken aback before saying it's alright. 9w8s have an overt(eight) haze(nine) in comparison to the more repressed(one) haze(nine) of 9w1s. Like all 9s they have trouble expressing anger directly and become less focused when they do. Their 8 wing though makes them more able to blow off steam by expressing anger physically at least, like throwing stuff in fustration.


9w1 is about keeping their inner peace(nine) intact(one). They avoid conflict externally and the reality of that conflict internally. They see conflict as an endless web of which any path could lead to estrangement so they hold their anger inside. They suppress their rough edges and conceal disagreeableness to seem accomodating. They have trouble saying no gracefully: "what do you mean?"..."answer to what?"..."I'm flattered you asked but I'll have to think about that as I have something else I gotta do"..."me participating would likely make no difference so you'd be better off asking someone else". They may also feel emotionally unsafe wanting something that's counter to the wants of the people around them. They'll either be wishy-washy and try to change the subject or find a way to go along while feeling they were sucked in. Basically they trade their comfort for others' comfort and hope and assume that by ignoring conflict they will maintain their emotional tranquility. To a 9w1 hope and assume are often close enough to be interchangeable. If they are in a safe and comfortable enviornment they can better explore disagreement.

9w1s are sensitive and self-effacing as well as gentle and loving. While they have issues with expressing anger they can also feel crippled with anxiety. They suppress or ignore their wants due to fear. They "cocoon" under stress and their "positive outlook" is a defense against a deep-seated belief of an inability to have an influence or impact. The delayed anger responses from 9w1s result from an excessive buildup of intense long-term anxiety that never got dealt with. They are much harder on themselves than 9w8s. They are very sensitive to criticism because they take it as a judgement on them as people. This is why praise can have such a positive effect on them. The key is to try to relieve their anxiety directly and then anger issues will resolve themselves.

9w1s have an "ego in having no ego", as opposed to the 9w8 ego in being able to be apathetic to what's pointless. They can be unusually intuitive and cerebral as well as creative and fantastical. They have a knack for synthesizing various theories and viewpoints. Sometimes they can seem like 4s and 5s except they idealize "flow" and don't take things to the same extremes. It's tough to narrow down the possibilities and discriminate the way they see everything as interconnected. They feel ambivalent and out of touch with what their instincts tell them. They repress and ignore negative urges in themselves but get fustrated with those who disturb the peace. In response to being disturbed themselves they might initially be taken aback or dazed and then say everything is okay.

9w1s are high-minded types who idealize peace, harmony, healing, and union with others. They mainly fear being seperated from loved ones and on some level they feel like they don't matter as a distinctly seperate person. "United we stand divided we fall" resonates with them because on a deeper level seperation is equivalent to annihilation. They dream about formlessness as the perfect reality, where one is freed from struggles of the ego and anything else that detracts from fluidity. They feel drawn to being connected with the vastness and beauty of nature and are attracted to things like large bodies of water and celestial entities in the sky. The Way of the Tao is very 9w1, as are other eastern philosophies that aspire to a formless and egoless nirvana. "The answer will come to you in time my son" wiseman archetype is also very 9w1. In such a reality unnecessary details, pain, and anxiety are either drowned out or work themselves out on their own.
 
 
 
bluedevil180
11 April 2011 @ 05:24 pm
I am going to miss this place once I graduate, I really am.
 
 
bluedevil180
16 March 2011 @ 11:54 pm
..how it is that it seems that a lot of people in my fraternity have all the free time in the world. Is it due to superior time management skills or really shitty time management skills? Is it due to not taking on any extracurricular activities besides Psi U? Is it due to very easy classes? Is it due to just not giving a fuck about grades and/or the world outside of the second floor of Keohane 4D? I am terribly confused here.

I barely have had any free time this semester and am admittedly envious.. :/
 
 
bluedevil180
10 March 2011 @ 12:33 pm
Here are three groups of statements.
Which statement in each group do you think sounds the most like you?
Which of the three statements you picked resembles you the most?

GROUP A
1-If I am virtuous I am worthy of love.

2-If I am needed I am worthy of love.

3-If people ask for my help I am worthy of love.

4-If people treat me as indispensable I am worthy of love.

5-If I achieve a win-win for everyone involved I will be worthy of love.

6-If I can shine I will be worthy of love.(maybe flourish is too general)

7-If I am admirable I will be worthy of love.

8-If I am distinguished I will be worthy of love.

9-One day I'll magically return to show you what you missed in my absence.

10-Most people are trite let alone have any ability to see the real me behind whatever image I present to them.

11-I take pride in staying true to myself no matter how many simple-minded people see my style as weird.

12-Unlike most people I realize the true beauty in meaning transcends what looks good.

GROUP B
1-Most so-called iconoclasts aren't real iconoclasts like I am.

2-Uncovering an insight that is counter to mainstream thinking makes me feel powerful.

3-Delving into the most interesting phenomena in the world makes me feel powerful.

4-Sometimes I think my intellectual curiosity just makes me end up chasing my tail.

5-I see how things really are underneath the BS...devil's advocate

6-I'm never completely sold on what people say...natural skeptic

7-I never know enough about things to feel safe...doubting Thomas

8-I surprise myself with how well I can handle a crisis...trusty sidekick

9-As long as I stay one step ahead of my fears I'll be okay.

10-Because I'm entertaining people wrongly think I don't have problems.

11-I will always be a kid at heart and nothing can change that.

12-It's all good...

GROUP C
1-I'm always on the lookout for easy street but gotta make sure I don't bite off more than I can chew.

2-What I want I get...see how easy that is?

3-I don't start stuff so try anything with me and you will regret it.

4-Why people even try to mess with me I have no idea.

5-I make life easy for myself.

6-Hardly anything bothers me.

7-If I avoid commitments that aren't worth the trouble I'll remain comfortable.

8-If I stay invisible enough to avoid conflict others won't get mad at me.

9-If I adhere to my own standards I have the right to point out how things should be.

10-If I am a good example I have the right to point out how things should be.

11-I feel compelled to point out what's wrong around me.

12-I feel compelled to fix what's wrong around me.


For me, it's
Group A (5)
Group B (7)
Group C (8)

And out of those three statements, B7 is the one that fits me the best.

What about you guys?
Some of the statements seem very similar..in many ways they are but there are very subtle differences, really pay attention to the wording.
 
 
bluedevil180
The Pioneer
This sub-type can be either very anxious or very self controlled. Concerns about survival and security are channeled into material achievements as a way to be a good person and do the right thing. It seems important to subdue nature and to impose order on the natural world. Family, home, food preparation, etc. take precedence over other needs. However, too much self sacrifice can fuel physical tension and resentment.



The Nurturer
This sub-type excels in creating warm, personable relationships with many kinds of people. Because of this great ability and the amount of attention spent in supporting and nurturing others, there can be a feeling of entitlement, or "me first," when it comes to getting one's own needs met. This may contribute to a prideful attitude. Or an insistence on going last supports another kind of specialness, as in false modesty.



The Company Man or Woman
With this subtype, his or her ability to work hard, perform well, and maintain the right image are placed in the service of material success. With their considerable drive and energy, this sub-type can accomplish their goals of financial security, a nice home, etc. The danger is losing contact with one's real self in this effort, and becoming overly identified with one's role at work.



The Creative Individualist
This is the willingness to jump into new situations, to pack up and move, to get going or take risks when the preservation instinct is highlighted, or when the authentic life seems elsewhere. To other people, it may seem reckless, like throwing caution to the winds, but it can work well with an unorthodox, creative or artistic style. There is a tension here between wanting to acquire material security and feeling detached from it all.



The Castle Defender
Home is one's castle and a place to retreat from the world and feel safe. There is concern about having enough supplies which can lead to hoarding. On the other hand, this sub-type may be lacking in allegiance to any geographical location, forever traveling or moving from place to place, with a home in the backpack or the camper van.



The Family Loyalist
The style for this sub-type is to overcome fear by making connections and agreements with people through the use of personal warmth. They don't want to be left out in the cold. Experiencing a lack of warmth or a threat to their security early in life can create a fear of taking risks and a need to stay within well known boundaries.



The Gourmand
This sub-type likes to enjoy an abundant lifestyle within their family and circle of friends. There is an emphasis on sharing good ideas and conversation, preparing elaborate meals (or dining out), planning fun projects. There can be problems with over talking, over eating, and over stimulation.



The Survivalist
The aggressiveness and excess of this subtype are channeled into physical survival and material security. In a hostile world, they will win out (or go down fighting). Fiercely protective of friends and family, they can establish more territory and stockpile more supplies than anyone. But in a friendly world, they may miss the boat altogether.



The Collector
This sub-type excels at creating the practical infrastructure and the daily rhythms that support instinctual life. But there is a tendency to "fall asleep" or to narcotize oneself not only with food, but with all kinds of material consumption. (They often collect various items). A life of material abundance and comfort may preclude efforts toward personal or spiritual growth.




The Social Reformer
This sub-type is comfortable with a secure social role and a clear set of rules. On their own turf they are usually quite friendly and gregarious. But their emphasis on doing things the right way can make it hard to adapt to new situations, and can also generate resentment or criticism towards others who may be acting "incorrectly."



The Ambassador
Self esteem is earned through both social approval and visible accomplishments. This subtype's ability to empathize and attune to other people's needs is used to create an important, even indispensable role within the organization or the cause. Being allied with the right people is usually more important than taking center stage.





The Politician
The drive for success is directed toward winning social approval, knowing the right people, and achieving power in social institutions, whether in government, business, or community groups. There can be genuine social leadership or simply self aggrandizement through propaganda and image making.



The Critical Commentator
Feelings of deficiency can be provoked by social situations, with envy directed toward other people's status or membership. This sub-type seeks to establish an acceptable social role, possibly as the emotional truth teller for the group. There is a need to resolve the tension between the quest for individual authenticity and social expectations.



The Professor
This sub-type has a hunger for knowledge and mastery of the sacred symbols and language of the group or society (totems). Yet at the same time, an over-emphasis on analysis and interpretation can get in the way of participation and trap one in the role of observer or learned teacher.



The Social Guardian
Being clear about one's role in the group or society is an overriding concern. Knowing the rules and creating clear agreements with friends and colleagues are vital for overcoming fear and avoiding rejection. Yet there may be ambivalence about belonging. Doing one's duty can be both a calling and a burden.



The Utopian Visionary
There is a paradox here: utopian visionaries need their friends and their group projects to express both their social idealism and love of life, yet harnessing oneself to the greater good of the group or the community always involves some sacrifice. There are limitations to personal expansiveness and planning for future outcomes.



The Group Leader/Gang Leader
This style is about overcoming powerlessness and injustice by being part of an aligned group, usually in a leadership role. Anger and aggression are both mediated by the needs of the group and harnessed to the common agenda. Loyalty to friends and the social cause takes precedence over personal feelings and needs.



The Community Benefactor
This sub-type blends well with the style and agenda of their friends and various social groups. The high side is leadership and selfless contribution for the common good; the problem is the tendency to "fall asleep" in a comfortable social role or through indiscriminate activities.

The Evangelist
A highly charged instinctual center is kept under strict self-control with clear rules and standards for correct behavior, leading at times to over zealousness in everything. Keeping the attention of the partner is vital to avoid self recrimination. Jealousy towards the partner is common, and may also be experienced toward other people who seem to have more room for self expression.



The Lover
All of the Lover's capacity for interpersonal attunement and empathy is available to make the connection and win the approval of selected people in a one to one relationship, even a brief one. The use of body language and feeling tones can be experienced as seductive, although not necessarily in a sexual sense. Or the same capacity can be used in a more aggressive style that demands personal attention and recognition.



The Movie Star
The ability to create a successful image is focused on gender identity and issues. Personal power or charisma rests on being attractive as a woman or man. Yet underneath, there may be confusion about one's real sexuality. There is a tendency to stay in the performer role, whether on screen and stage or in personal relationships.



The Dramatic Person
Competition with other people is used to overcome a feeling of inner deficiency and create motivation for a personal agenda. Other people's power or strength is taken as a personal challenge, and usually creates a strong reaction. One's own value tends to rise and fall in comparison with other people.



The Secret Agent
This is the sharing of confidences from the inner, private world in one to one relationships. Personal relationships are carefully selected. There can be a secretive quality, or a kind of profound reserve, reflecting some of the tension between the need to make contact and the need to preserve autonomy.



The Warrior
There are two styles of the Warrior.
The first style is based on overcoming or avoiding fear through willpower and feats of physical strength and bravery, or through the strength of one's intellect and fierce ideological positions.
In the second style fear and self doubt are handled by channeling one's idealism and keen perceptiveness into creating beauty in one's environment. This helps create some stability and control.



The Adventurer
Suggestibility works both ways. Adventurers can be easily influenced by the attraction of new ideas, adventures, and people, falling into a state of fascination or "entrainment." They also have great powers of suggestion, and can use personal charm to lead people into a new paradigm, a new purchase, or a new relationship.



The Commander
Commanders use their forcefulness and self assertion to possess (or control) their partner or significant others. They may also be said to be possessed by this drive, unable to adapt or let go at times. The other side of this will show up as a yearning to be met so fully that one can surrender and let go of control, to be able to turn it over to the partner.



The Seeker
Seekers have a longing to merge, either with a partner, nature, or God. This can be indiscriminate, or heedless at times, but it may also be a doorway into a transcendent state. In daily life it can show up as a problem with keeping personal boundaries and focus, since it's so easy to be pulled outside of oneself.

Out of these 27, I think I relate to the "Social Guardian" the most.
I can definitely relate to the need to know where I fit in within a group and my strong commitment to duty.
Which one do you think you relate to the most?
 
 
bluedevil180
25 February 2011 @ 08:46 pm
I stopped myself from having a panic attack today..I think I am capable of not letting this experience break me down-let's see how willing I am once all is said and done.

The questions I fear asking next week are:
1.) How much money do we have in our account?
2.) How much money do we owe?

Mathematically, I don't think we will be in too bad of a spot.
I'm just hoping that we can raise enough funds to pay off debts.

I just like the fact that I stopped myself from losing my cool and going down a spiral of self-loathing. I don't think I would have been able to stop that two years ago.